August 5, 2010
Wow, it's been awhile since I have decided to blog... No one reads them, so what is the point?
But, I just want to write about things and throw them out there... share them with SOMEONE...

My life is absolutely amazing right now! The Lord has blessed me so much in the past few months! I am married to a wonderful man who loves the Lord very much and I am about to undertake my last year of college!

Can you imagine? It seems like just last week I was in middle school... wishing I was married and done with school... and now, that's exactly where I am. Next thing you know, I will be a grandma... wishing that time had passed a bit slower, so that I might have enjoyed my family a bit more than I had chosen to before.

Really and truly, I have absolutely no idea what the Lord has planned for my life....
Will I be a mama? Will my children learn and accept the way that is right? Will I live to be a grandma? Will I make it through life with my family as a whole or will I lose a sibling or parent along the way? Will I be rich or poor? Will my husband and I keep our vows to each other? Will I fail my family? Will I live my life for Christ the way He's asked me to? WILL I?

There are so many questions I have and so many things I desire for my life, but are they God's desire for my life? The hardest thing is completely surrendering what is not yours (your life) to Jesus! Someone once said to me: "You can only see the things right in front of you, but God's got the helicopter view." Phew!! That's a relief!

Dear Jesus, I have no idea what is going to happen in this life, on this earth. I am terrified to thing of all the things that could be, but You know best. I actually am thankful for the blindfold you have placed over my eyes. If I could see what was to be, then maybe I wouldn't keep on keeping on. Give me the strength to jump into life without apprehensions. Thank you for carrying me through the hard times up until now, and help me to trust You to do the same throughout my entire life.
Your Child,
Emily