Overwhelmed... Yes, that is my "go-to" word for the day. I was trying to think of "when life gets you down" quotes, and the only one I can think of is from Finding Nemo: "When life gets you down, you know what you gotta do? Just keep swimming!" This is so so true.
I find myself on the internet a lot these days: trying to find coupons, working on my business, surfing the latest Pinterest pins, trying to find encourgaement from a blog, or even just information on a virus my daughter has... day in and day out my mind and heart are bombarded with these amazing mom-models that I see (you know; the ones that make amazing breakfast in the morning, have their houses completely organized and perfect, are super crafty, feed their family all organic food, are super cute and trendy, and have like four kids), and I think to myself about how far away from perfect I am!
Hi, my name is Emily and I am the "last-minute mom" who sometimes works on memory and my android calendar alone. I am the mom who rarely remembers to set the coffee-pot timer so my sweet husband can have a cup-a-joe in the morning, the mom who trys so hard to be organized but keeps finding that my house has exploded into a 16-month old's toy bomb, the mom who thinks that pulling out the glue-gun is getting crafty, the mom who feeds her kids non-organic veggies and meat, the mom who sometimes (shhh) wears work-out pants to Walmart (don't tell Stacy and Clinton), and the mom who only has one baby (another on the way) but seems not to be able to conquer the world like most.
Ok Emily, is this what life is really about? Being the perfect mom??? My mind wants to scream yes, but my heart knows the REAL answer. NO.
Ok then! What is the purpose of your life here on earth?
I hang my head in shame, because I know the answer and it is not what I always live by.
The answer is this, the purpose in life is to glorify, honor, and live wholeheartedly for my Savior... NOTHING hindering or in the way!
Right now, my desire to be the "perfect" mother/wife is in the way of what I really need to be doing.
I know that once I put my all my effort into the ONE thing that is important in life (my relationship with my Savior), that then EVERYTHING else will fall into place.
I may not EVER be the "perfect" mom or wife, but I will strive to fear the Lord and let my priorities fall into place from that point on. J-O-Y: Jesus and others and you... what a wonderful way to spell joy!!!!!
Oh my, a lesson that I continue to learn over and over and over again.
Sorry Lord, I am obviously a slow learner.... so just keep on teaching me!
And my advice to any one else that may be struggling with this same thing (sometimes I feel like the only one)... My dear friend and sister: JUST KEEP SWIMMING!!!!!
Love,
Emily
You are NOT the only one! I feel that way most of the time, which is why a lot of times I avoid the internet. I've actually hidden posts from certain people because it hurts me so much sometimes, and it's a distraction from my looking to the Lord. I am far from perfect, as well, and I am constantly reminding myself to not compare myself with other moms. So all that to say, you're not alone. And I'm positive you're doing a great job for your family. Someone said to me once (which I hope I won't forget) that they're not great at lots of things like other people, but that's the way God made them, so that must be just what their family needs. So I try to think that way, too. Not that there's no room for improvement, but that God made me the way I am, with my specific struggles, and He made me to fit in my family in my own way. :)
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Sarah Brunner... I think you are AMAZING!
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