DROWNING

It is a feeling you cannot control, you are filled with panic but also with an acknowledgement of what is about to happen, and all you can do is hope that this is not the end.
There are times I feel like I am drowning in a big black hole, and I don't know which way to turn to get myself out of it. This is the moment it seems when I finally and completely turn to God for an answer (and not rely on my SELF like usual)... and then I get a HUGE slap in the face from what He says to me....
This is what I got TOLD this morning:
Emily,
Life here on earth is a whole lot of NOTHING unless you are living fully and completely for Me.
The things that you worry about... THEY are not important, and in the end they will pass away. I will provide you with what you need and you just need to trust that and live for what is important.
(I was reading in Ecclesiastes... ALL IS VANITY).......

After being slapped in the face, I remembered that my God has NEVER let me down. Sure, there are times that are very rough... but if life was perfect and easy then I would never fully rely on the Lord and follow His ways. God has given me sooooo much... a WONDERFUL (and absolutely drop dead handsome husband), a sweet and precious Caydence (eventhough she is a bit independent at times, like her mama), another precious little girl (who I will meet face to face in 8 weeks or so), a lovely home where we keep warm and safe, the cutest puppy ever, and amazing family and friends that surround me each day....
THANK YOU GOD for such amazing blessings. Help me to look at the positive everyday and not the negative. Help me to hope and rely on You and not let the things of this world consume (drown)my soul. I want to be consumed with love for You.